Welp, it took sixty-four days but I did it; I missed a day in the one hundred day challenge.
I blog at night, usually, just before bed; if I know I’m going out and that a late night or some form of alcoholic beverage are to be involved I’ll try to blog beforehand. But yesterday involved a last-minute rooftop at sunset, and mezcal, and then vegan tacos and a glass of sangria, and by the time we got back I was half-asleep already, and it is only this morning that it dawned on me that, yep, I’d missed a day.
To be honest, I don’t feel as bad about it as I thought I would. It used to be the exact kind of thing that would prevent me from doing this sort of challenge in the past; the fear of not pulling the whole thing through, and therefore inevitably failing.
This time, though, it doesn’t feel like failing. Blogging for sixty-three days in a row feels pretty darned successful already, and blogging ninety-nine days out of one hundred still feels pretty cool. This used to be the kind of thing that would make me want to give up, but now I just want to keep going. You don’t stop running just because you’ve tripped.
I haven’t yet figured out if and how I want to make up this lost sixty-fourth day; if I’ll blog twice in one day, or if I’ll blog on day one hundred and one, or if I’ll let it go.
Either way, some tiny things I’ve been reminded of with Day 64 :
1. It’s the big picture that matters. Even if I’ve missed a day, at the end of this challenge I’ll still have blogged more and more consistently than I ever have in my life before. It doesn’t matter that I only managed ninety-nine, or maybe ninety-eight days in total. What matters is that I succeeded at ninety-nine or ninety-eight day total.
2. Rules are meant to be adjusted. Especially for this kind of challenge where nothing is at stake and nothing is life-threatening. These rules aren’t rules: they’re loose guidelines, and it’s not the end of the world if you end up breaking them. Make them work for you. Adjust them. Break them sometimes. It’s OK.
3. Organize yourself. There’s usually a specific moment during the day where I blog and it’s the same every day; I have a tiny contingency plan in case I know my routine is going to be upside-down. However, this system is, obviously, not infaillible. So maybe it’s time to plan for this blogging thing to happen differently ? Perhaps slightly earlier in the day so I don’t need to worry with producing semi-coherent thoughts when I am already fall half-asleep (the exact way I am doing right now)? We shall see.